Disheartened

I know part of it is the weather making me all puffy and depressed. And another part is C-man must be growing or something, because he's been acting like a teenage girl. But I've been so excited about my bee project this year, that it's so incredibly disheartening to think it isn't going to work out.

I just don't know what I'm doing wrong. I keep reading and researching and poring through message boards and asking questions. And it all comes down to - nobody really knows.

But isn't that just the way it goes? Even with the best of intentions, it can all still fall to pieces. Bummer. I need some sun to cheer me up.